My Problem with Distraction

Why is it that I still have such a difficult time praying for longer than two minutes before my mind wanders off? My thoughts go on these little excursions that have absolutely nothing to do with prayer, the Bible verse in front of me, or the appreciation for what he has done.

If the Bible says that Christ lives in us and we remain in his grace, why do I feel like I’m in the lost and found box ready to be claimed by One who has already claimed me as his own. My life can feel like I’m just wandering around captivated by the sights and sounds around me, but without a firm sense of purpose. It’s like visiting a fascinating museum, moving from exhibit to exhibit. I’m interested in some, bored by others, but always anxious to see what’s next.

What can be annoying is that I already know what my purpose is. I have a compelling mission, and it’s very clear. I receive instructions and encouragement every morning when I read God’s Word. And while I serve as a staff minister with the intent to bring as many people as possible to heaven, my main purpose isn’t just an obligation to perform. It’s an outpouring of faith.

My main purpose is simply getting to know God better each day. That is the real mission. But translating that mission into my daily life is where the disconnect begins to happen.

My choices are often made in a split second, dictated by whatever influence is loudest in that moment. The “tyranny of the urgent” has been joined by the “tyranny of the notification,” and they both eagerly pull my focus away from that still, small voice. I’ll be honest: I’m not always winning this battle. What matters most—knowing God—frequently fails to capture my full attention.

So, what is the solution?

When I feel frustrated, I’m reminded that God isn’t surprised by my wandering mind. He knows my weaknesses. He captures my attention just enough to remind me of his grace. It’s not about being a “perfect” prayer warrior; it’s about the complete forgiveness we’re given every single day.

I’m realizing that my life isn’t about perfectly executing a strategic plan or a mission statement. It’s about being liberated from the need to perform and instead placing my full trust in Jesus Christ.

By faith in him, the choices (or the lack of choices) I make are being brought into harmony with an eternal purpose that God is orchestrating in a magnificent way. I don’t have to be fearless in my focus; I just need to be trusting in his grace.

I guess it still comes back to trust, doesn’t it? In a world that is constantly begging for our attention and our trust, I’m reminded again that there is only one source to fully place my trust and my attention in. And that is sufficient.